hello there :)
finally a good news.
skin is getting better. pimple scars less visible and no new breakout.
thank you lord.
i am still procrastinating btw. yet to start on my rp :'(
haizz...
overall : i didnt do anything much today beside sleep, eat, and watch tv.
oh yea.. need to prepare a masker later.
tats all for now :)
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
Monday, 28 May 2012
silly me
its 12.16 am and i am wide awake. why??
because i am waiting for him to call
haiz.. y am i so optimistic?
i have to learn to let go. i should not depend on him anymore and here i am being so pathetic and desperate. argghhh!!
the battle between the heart and brain goes on.
i should try to get some sleep. be strong sharan. you can do it. don't give up.
because i am waiting for him to call
haiz.. y am i so optimistic?
i have to learn to let go. i should not depend on him anymore and here i am being so pathetic and desperate. argghhh!!
the battle between the heart and brain goes on.
i should try to get some sleep. be strong sharan. you can do it. don't give up.
what hurts the most :'(
mood : emo
so just bare with me.
i fell in love with the wrong guy and the wrong time. he promised me all the happiness in the world, he promised to protect me, to never cheat or lie to me and to always make me happy.
well, this is why they say never make a promise when you are happy.
he lied and cheated on me not once or twice but SEVEN times.
it kills me!!
i trusted him blindly and i did learned from my mistake.
when the trust is broken, you can never look at the person the same way.
u just never feel the same way anymore.
i saw the texts, chat history, and the pain of betrayal was so bad. i was numb.i am in tears while typing this post.
life is not fair. what did i do wrong? why am i hurt and why does this incident changes me forever while you just get to walk away so easily and move on like nothing happened.
you left a scar that changes who i am.
i do not trust man and i look at them the same way as i look at you.
i will never believe in happily ever after and i will always doubt anyone who claims to love me.
after all the pain, i still care for you!! (slap myself)
moving on is not easy and i am still trying. i just pray that u will feel how i felt for you.
i know i will be ok but it takes time with every crying session of course. i will be stronger. i just need to trust myself.
so all the single ladies,
be happy, i wish i was wiser enough to walk away when i met him
so just bare with me.
i fell in love with the wrong guy and the wrong time. he promised me all the happiness in the world, he promised to protect me, to never cheat or lie to me and to always make me happy.
well, this is why they say never make a promise when you are happy.
he lied and cheated on me not once or twice but SEVEN times.
it kills me!!
i trusted him blindly and i did learned from my mistake.
when the trust is broken, you can never look at the person the same way.
u just never feel the same way anymore.
i saw the texts, chat history, and the pain of betrayal was so bad. i was numb.i am in tears while typing this post.
life is not fair. what did i do wrong? why am i hurt and why does this incident changes me forever while you just get to walk away so easily and move on like nothing happened.
you left a scar that changes who i am.
i do not trust man and i look at them the same way as i look at you.
i will never believe in happily ever after and i will always doubt anyone who claims to love me.
after all the pain, i still care for you!! (slap myself)
moving on is not easy and i am still trying. i just pray that u will feel how i felt for you.
i know i will be ok but it takes time with every crying session of course. i will be stronger. i just need to trust myself.
so all the single ladies,
be happy, i wish i was wiser enough to walk away when i met him
TRUST
This is a random post by the way.
i have learned a lot the past 2 years being in a relationship.
what i have learned is:
1. most guys are never serious about you
2. they lie ALL THE TIME
3. they get bored of you easily
4. they are ALWAYS flirting with someone else
5. they RECYCLE the same pick up lines and all the lovey dovey text that they once used on you
i was so naive. i thought he meant everything that he said. but it was all lies. sad bitter truth that i have to live with.
i have learned a lot the past 2 years being in a relationship.
what i have learned is:
1. most guys are never serious about you
2. they lie ALL THE TIME
3. they get bored of you easily
4. they are ALWAYS flirting with someone else
5. they RECYCLE the same pick up lines and all the lovey dovey text that they once used on you
i was so naive. i thought he meant everything that he said. but it was all lies. sad bitter truth that i have to live with.
my day :)
started my day soooo early. went to clinic and as expected it was pack. i waited almost an hour to get my prescription from the doctor. oh btw, the doctor was super sweet and cheerful. totally made my day.
the sad thing is, my skin is getting worst. breakouts and pimple scars. haizz. i got to drink more water to flush out all the toxic and sleep early.
freaking worried.
got to take extra care during the holidays.
tats it. will update later
xoxoxo
the sad thing is, my skin is getting worst. breakouts and pimple scars. haizz. i got to drink more water to flush out all the toxic and sleep early.
freaking worried.
got to take extra care during the holidays.
tats it. will update later
xoxoxo
Sunday, 27 May 2012
to do list during holidays
1. clean my room
2. arrange my notes (previous sem) and seal it
3. start on my research project
just 3 things to do and i have 2 weeks. i can do this!! (self motivation) lets hope i do not procrastinate.
2. arrange my notes (previous sem) and seal it
3. start on my research project
just 3 things to do and i have 2 weeks. i can do this!! (self motivation) lets hope i do not procrastinate.
wide awake
i couldn't sleep. was awake at 5.45 am haizz.. was just browsing and staring at facebook homepage. i am praying that i do not doze off while waiting in the clinic. such a boring day. yawnnn
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