idiotic jerk!!

i am soooooooooo pissed off!!! arrgghhhh

i took my time and effort to do you fucking assignment for you and you have the cheek to email it to that BITCH!!!

wow!!!!

you are good for NOTHING!!

it was my hard work and you have no right to pass it to someone else without asking me first!!

i wish you rot in hell for everything that you have done!!!

i will pray hard and make sure you pay the price for everything that you did to me..

progress so far

hellooooooooooooooo

haha.. as you can guess, i am hyper and happy!!
it is working.
i feel better and much more positive about myself.
i enjoyed my day and i am anticipating for whats next.

its all in your head and depends on your perspective.

change it and you will be a different person :)

few motivational quotes

the new me

i read a book that actually made me realize why i have been so unhappy this whole time.

it actually changed my perspective and made me think out of the box. 

with each line that i read, i heard pings in my head and i could relate it to myself.

the book is THE SECRET by  Rhonda Byrne

i am not revealing the content of the book here because i feel you should read it and find out by yourself.

after reading the book.

i started writing down what i want in life 

and i plan to chant everything on this list everyday..

i am gonna wake up reading this list and i am gonna end my day reading this list.

instead of thinking about anything that makes me sad, i will look at this list. 

everyday.

from time to time i will add on the list and i will make sure i achieve it. 

that is my goal. :)

the unhappy me

alright...
i know i have been posting alot of emo stuff here.
promise to change for the better.

as the tittle suggests, i have been very unhappy for the past 2 years.
i actually know why..

i started and ended my day by thinking about you.
it was always about you.
i gave my key of happiness to you.
my biggest mistake ever.

no matter how much you love someone, your happiness should never be in their hands. this is because you will be taken granted for.
it is human nature. we run after something or someone that never chase us, and we ignore the ones chasing us .

therefore, i do not blame you.

thinking about you all the time reminds me of my misery, of my family and how lonely i was.
after few months, it reminds me of your constant betrayal and how you think i am not good enough for you.

i think about this day in and day out.

this was the reason i have been so unhappy for the past 2 years.

and i plan to change this..

how?
that will be in my next post. :)

goals

alright.. time to set new goals and work my way to achieve it.

so here it goes:

1. i want to score 4.00 this sem..

2. i am gonna gain at least 10 kg in 2 months time..

3. gonna perm my hair (waiting for it to grow longer)

4. gonna be more socialistic

carelessness

ok.. i have no idea what is running in my mind today.
i trip in the bathroom and knock my head on the sink. its swollen :'(
when closing the sliding door, my finger got slammed. its swollen and blue black now :'(

i accidentally spill hot water on my leg :(
its burning rite now.

haizz...

lets hope my carelessness dont be the cause of my death