the unhappy me

alright...
i know i have been posting alot of emo stuff here.
promise to change for the better.

as the tittle suggests, i have been very unhappy for the past 2 years.
i actually know why..

i started and ended my day by thinking about you.
it was always about you.
i gave my key of happiness to you.
my biggest mistake ever.

no matter how much you love someone, your happiness should never be in their hands. this is because you will be taken granted for.
it is human nature. we run after something or someone that never chase us, and we ignore the ones chasing us .

therefore, i do not blame you.

thinking about you all the time reminds me of my misery, of my family and how lonely i was.
after few months, it reminds me of your constant betrayal and how you think i am not good enough for you.

i think about this day in and day out.

this was the reason i have been so unhappy for the past 2 years.

and i plan to change this..

how?
that will be in my next post. :)