never give up

i was never the sort to give up so easily.
i always fought my way through it all to get what i want.
the more obstacles i face, the more determined i will be to get it.

i guess it was the same with u.
i fought my way through with my family members.
for over 2 years, i want through verbal abuse and even physical abuse for you. just to be with you.
i kept telling myself that it is worth it in the end.
they just don't understand.
i was wrong...

and they were right

you can never fight for someone who isn't fighting for you.
how do you fight for the person that u love when he is hoping that i was like some other girl that he was attracted to.

(overwhelmed with emotions again)

do i keep fighting for you. change who i am so that i fit in your requirements.

it hurts.. oh no.. it kills me a little inside all the time.

how do u let go that one person who fought for so much.
you went against everyone that u love for him.

putting literally your whole life on the line.
risking it all because you trust and believed that it is worth the risk.

after everything that took place.
am i finally giving up?
am i walking away?

knowing that i lose it all..
i mean ALL.

(sigh)

i learn a lot of valuable lessons.
to equip me so that i will not make the same mistake twice.