bitter truth

i guess it is hard to move on because you cant endure the feeling of being replaced. knowing that he is with someone else. knowing that he is happy without you. it hurts to the core, knowing that all the plans, dreams and hope that u had together with him is not gonna come true. he is making plans with someone else. he is planning his future with another girl.
(pause for awhile, to compose myself)

we made a lot of plans together. wedding, jobs, kids, their name, school and future.

our house, the interior decoration. haizzz..

i had a clear vision of how my future was gonna be like.but  now..

(sigh)

i have to start all over again and this time all by myself.

i have no one to make plans with.
not even my family. every decision and step that i take, i will be doing it alone.

(eyes filled with tears)

i made a decision 2 years down the road that changed my life and i am making another decision rite now that is gonna change my entire life again.

i am not gonna blame anyone neither will i wish him the worst for his future.
i had good and bad memories with him. the good ones i will cherish for ever and i will learn from the bad.

it just kills me a little inside knowing that you are gonna go on with your life and here i am picking up all the pieces and hoping to put them together. i might just be a memory to you (if i am blessed enough) or you might just forget me entirely.

wish i didn't have to make this but i know it is for the best.
its a battle between what is right and what i want. i want you but i cant have you because your role in my life has come to the end.
i decide to start a new chapter.

i know this is the right decision but it is not an easy path to take.
what matters is i have taken the first step.


(tears rolling down the cheeks)