journey of a final year student

say hello to sem 5!!
even the first week is crazy.
choosing supervisor, deciding whether to do wet or dry lab and of course i already received my first assignment and project.

however i am not complaining.
i decided to continue tutoring and keep myself as busy as possible.

ok.. emo time

i miss him.. so damn much,,
he is still my first and last thought everyday.

i always forget to forget u.
get what i mean
(sigh)
i am crapping

i am scared of myself.
i am afraid i might end up doing something stupid
thats the reason i want to be as busy as i can be.

i dont feel like eating but i am forcing myself to eat
and when i have nothing to do..
i have crazy thoughts of ending my life ( keep your opinion to yourself. be in my shoes and u know how i feel )

i am freaking careless nowadays. i almost poked myself in the eye with my umbrella today
(face palm)

i cry myself to sleep.
and i only sleep for less than 5 hours

i am tired. i wish there was an easier way to deal with this.

to all guys out there. before you say those 3 words to any girl. make sure u mean it.

and to all the girls, keep this in mind :

the amount of love you invested in any relationship is the same amount of pain you will take back when its over

thats all for now..

p.s. i miss you :'(