The girl that has been constantly fighting everyday is finally losing hope.
I fought the hardest and probably the toughest battle in my life recently and i am losing.
it doesn't feel good, especially when you know the price of losing is your life.
But
honestly, i am proud of how far i have come. i am proud of all the
battles i have fought and most importantly of who i have become. Its ok
that it has to end this way, at least i know i didnt give up without a
fight.
i pushed everyone slowly away, no one knows what
i am going through. i dont think they will be strong enough to see me
suffer, so i pushed them away. you will be surprised to know how easily
people can forget about you and go on with their life. :)
i
have been constantly alone during most of my battles and this is no
different. But, it hurts at times knowing that you might not have anyone
around you during the last stage of your life.
i am
glad everything is gonna end soon. All the sufferings, pain and
struggles that i had to endure. i am saying my last goodbye with my head
held high. i am not a quitter but a fighter and now i am gonna die
fighting.
to the people that i love,
i am sorry for pushing you away,
i dont want to force anyone to be there for me.
i wanted to do this alone. so i hope you understand.
thank you for the beautiful memories.
i truly hope that every time you think of me, you smile :)
p.s. i wish i had more time, but thank you God for everything :)
