karma day

today is karma day?  i was shocked to find this out via twitter.
it made me think of all the people who have hurt me and yes.. i did think of you mr daniel.

i realized life is not fair. you get to live your life the way u want and here i am suffering for trusting you.
i am paying the price for being with you :)

family members treat me as a joke and laugh at me.

i get sarcasm and lots of hurtful remarks because of you.

i didn't do anything wrong,,

i trusted you. to be there for me. to be loyal and to at least appreciate whatever nonsense i was going through just because i wanted to be with you.

(sobbing )

you are a loser and a heartless jerk..

for hurting me in such a way .. not once, not twice but countless time.

being with you was a mistake.

trusting you and thinking that you are worth every sacrifice and pain is plain stupidity.

no one takes me seriously at home.. and its all because of you.

i hate you for everything that you have done and everything that i am going through for you.

you will have to pay a very heavy price for each time i grief and for every tear drop.

i was loyal and right. you were wrong for me..
i wish you could at least be a man and let me know this way earlier and safe me from this pain.

To Travel is Better Than to Arrive

“Some famous guy once said, ‘To travel is better than to arrive‘. and I was like ‘What!?’ Well, because I used to think that there was only one path to take to where you wanna get to be in life. But if you choose that one path, that doesn’t mean you have to abandon all the others. I realized that it’s actually what happens along the way….that counts. The stumbles or the falls. The friendships. It’s the journey. Not the destination. You just gotta -I guess- trust the future will work itself out like it’s supposed to.”
-Moose (Adam G. Sevani)


This quote was taken from the movie Step Up 3D

 I like the quote “To travel is better than to arrive,” because it truly is about the journey we take in life. Sometimes the journey isn’t what we expected. I, for one, know that first hand. However, it’s the knowledge we gain, the people we meet, and the mistakes we learn from that gets us to where we want to be in life.

In my opinion, when we just have the destination in mind it skews the direction we want to go in and the way we ultimately perceive things. By only seeing the destination in mind we don’t realize the obstacles we’re going to have to go through to get there. I think this quote truly defines that we won’t get anywhere in life without having to work hard for whatever it is we want to achieve or where we want to get. We WILL have to work hard and put in the effort to learn. We WILL meet people, make friendships, and build relationships–some that last and some that don’t, unfortunately. And we WILL make mistakes. With those mistakes (and failures) we’ll have to learn to pick ourselves back up.We’re so caught up about the way we look and what others may think about us when in reality it doesn’t matter. We often think too much about the future and what’s up ahead than just enjoying the now.

What makes life so precious? It’s the journey we go through. What we experience and what we gain from those experiences while headed towards the destination. The end result.

the good in the bad

i have to thank you for coming into my life as a lesson.

each lie, betrayal and manipulation that i had to endure made me a wiser and stronger person.

i am not as naive as i used to be. 

thank you for making me realize no man is worth the price of sacrificing my family.

thank you for teaching me not to trust anyone easily.

thank you for letting me learn the hard way that not everyone is worth the time and effort that we put in

thank you for showing me how mean and deceiving people can be.
thank you for letting me know that never to keep high hopes and love someone more than they deserve 

 last but not least,

thank you for giving me the most valuable lesson in life : to get my priorities right and to never tie my happiness to people 

i have alot to thank you for. you are my biggest mistake and also the most important lesson learned.

no matter how much i try, i can never hate you.

do i care for you ? 

yes. i do. 

but...

you are nothing more than my bitter past. 

a dark phase in my life.

if i do look back its to remind myself not to repeat my mistakes. 

thank you once again :)