There's no love like the first

One could fall in love many times during the course of a lifetime, but the first rush of love always holds a special place in our hearts. The novelty of the feeling, like the first drops of dew on an untouched leaf, makes it special and unforgettable.
First love is powerful.  It builds us up, and it can tear us apart.


i can never love anyone like i loved you. the feeling just doesn't come. its a different feeling. nothing like how i felt for you. 
i guess.. that is why people say that first love is the hardest to forget. 


i guess i will never be able to forget what we shared. 
the good times and the bad.
i am disappointed that it came to an end because of your STUPIDITY.


i still tear up whenever i think about how you hurt me but i wouldn't doubt the fact that i am a stronger and a better person now. i value myself more. 
i put myself first and i know exactly what i want in life. love would be a bonus. 


the thing about first love is you never knew you could feel that way for someone.
the care, love, eagerness to just hear his voice and all the silly long hours conversation about random things. 
your life becomes a fairy tale. you will be over the moon and you will start planning about your marriage and even your life together with him. 


then.. he breaks your heart. leave you alone and move on like nothing happen.
all your happiness being sucked out of you. 


you realize life is not a fairy tale and u snap back to the harsh brutal reality. you tell yourself that you never gonna fall in love again. that every man out there is a heartless bastard. you stop believing in love. you see a happy couple and u think ( i wonder how long is this gonna last )




(sigh)


i wouldn't say i am over you. i care about you and you still come across my mind every now and then. 
but i have let you go. it caused me lots of grief, pain, and tears. but i manage to do it. :)




“Everybody says the first cut if the deepest. It’s so true. I don’t know if it’s because it’s the best love, but it’s the first that you remember. There is one boy that I will remember for the rest of my life, and I wouldn’t go as far as to say, ‘Oh I was in love with him and he broke my heart’. You hold on to that, just that first experience, it’s good to have and you should appreciate it, even if it hurts.”  kristen stewart 




“Something about first love defies duplication. Before it, your heart is blank. Unwritten. After, the walls are left inscribed and graffitied. When it ends, no amount of scrubbing will purge the scrawled oaths and sketched images, but sooner or later, you find that there’s space for someone else, between the words and in the margins.” 
― Tammara Webber, Where You Are