Lone Ranger

It's always nice to know you have someone around through good times and bad. You don't expect them to make things better for you but to just be there, hold you hand and not let you drift.

That person can be a friend, family, bf/gf and etc. As long as they understand you, loves you and are always there for you is sufficient.

For those who are lone rangers, I feel your pain. It's tough to be strong through bad times and not let anyone notice the troubles. Everyone has seen you strong and they expect you to be strong no matter how strong is the tide.

That's a lot of pressure. Feeling trapped because you have no way or no one to turn to. You end up isolating yourself. Being a recluse because it's easier to deal with it behind close doors. It's easier to breakdown when no one is looking.

Once you have let it all out, you wash of the pain and any traces of it and walk out of the door with the brightest smile you have.

Everyone sees you as someone very strong but I tell you that you are the weakest being among the lot.

You fear people will not love you when you show them how much you are going through. They will not see you as the same person, not treat you like before and you keep everything bottled up.

Hide everything under the carpet and walk about like you are leading a perfect life.

You need to start making a change. Start opening up and sharing your thoughts. Most people will be ready to hear as it's a new piece of gossip for them. Something new to talk about while they are having coffee. But I choose to believe that there will be at least one person who genuinely cares. Who will stick around and make sure you are not alone.

So I am gonna try to make a change. To be there for someone who needs me because I know how it feels to deal with pain alone.